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October 23, 2011

labusquedademas — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 03:43:54 +0000

October 23,2011 1:34am
1:34am
Love I lay here beside a beautiful woman, open one eye and she is still here with me. I smile. I breathe deep and smell you and I smile and I feel you next to me and I smile.

September 6, 2011

labusquedademas — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 03:43:10 +0000

Sept. 6,2011
I love you so much my wife. You make every day a great day and it is all because of how much you love me. And when I see that look in your eyes, the knowledge that I am yours forever, well I know that you already knew how much our souls loved oneanother. You were just waiting for me to catch up

October 24, 2011

labusquedademas — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 03:42:15 +0000

Mrs. Bower,
I wish to hold your mind in my hand to know each thought and emotion and to fulfill all you may think of. What can I say to the woman who I cling to so closely now? I need you more so. I need more of your kisses and more of your hugs and more of your whispers and more of your words. I look into your eyes and see you places and no matter the place I wish to be there with you.
I feel your love so strong and it makes me smile and at times you seem so sad inside and I feel that also and still I am grateful to be able to share that as well.
I love you I love you. The woman who has captured my heart and who has won me over with her passionate love. Who has taken my thoughts and desires and made them all yours. You relax me so.
I too wish we could have started life together but God brought us to this point and together now for a reason. I have everything I want already with you and I know that I will have years to love you more each day as I do.
You are my queen, the ruler of my heart, the tamer of my wild mind and soul and the calming word that makes me feel the stillness in our love.
Thank you so much for loving me as I love you and for showing me that their was actually more to love then I ever knew.
I miss your lips and skin when we are apart and your hands that I try to keep near. And I miss the happiness in your eyes and your smile and how you warm me with that look that says you love me.
When you read this, call me and tell me that you love me forever, tell me that you need me longer than that and that you miss my arms. Then I will get to hear your voice and know more of your love my pearl, my wife.

August 30, 2011

labusquedademas — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 03:39:41 +0000

My desire so strong. It pours out at the oddest times. Tears flow. My heart this longing aching to be used for you. My voice it’s waiting to minister. Waiting for the moment that you give the word. Go, where… That’s all you have given me. I await your words. In a dream a spoken word, a writing on the wall perhaps. We will hear from you soon. Our path will be set, a definitive answer shall be brought forth. Our hearts desires shall be filled. You promised me in 2009 a promise of life, financial blessing and the best, your promise has came to pass. No it hasn’t been easy but I have been faithful to you and so you are faithful to me. Now here I am no longer a single longing soul, but a soul combined with another. We come to you as one. Show us your way, give us your word. Your will is our desire. I fall into you, I release my fears, my worry, my all. Speak to us, I will hear, and listen.

December 31, 2011

labusquedademas — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 03:37:21 +0000

The seed has been planted. It shall bear fruit. Alone with God in mountains the sound of his creations. Do I hear his voice, maybe, but I have seen his works and this great place he has created and it is us he has chosen to give it to.

January 7, 2003

labusquedademas — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 03:35:49 +0000

LAST NIGHT I HAD A DREAM ABOUT HEAVEN…IT STARTED WITH PEOPLE IN A CIRCLE IN THE BACK RIGHT CORNER OF THE CHURCH OUT IN OREGON. WE WERE ALL STANDING THERE PRAYING AND WAITING LIKE WE KNEW GOD WAS ABOUT TO COME. I REMEMBER WHO I BELIEVE TO BE JACOB DRIVING A TRUCK AND HIS DAD (BRO. DILLON) SAYING WE CAN’T HAVE ANY INTERUPTIONS. SO WE KEPT PRAYING AND GOD CAME AND WE OPENED OUR EYES AND STARTED REJOICING AND SAYING HALELUAH FOR WE COULD SEE WHAT WOULD APPEAR TO BE THE GATES. THERE WERE HOUSE LIKE BUILDINGS SOME BIG SOME SMALL SOME LOOKING LIKE NORMAL HOUSES AND SOME LOOKING LIKE TRAILORS, THAT WERE WHITE. IT WAS QUIET WE BEING THE ONLY ONES WHO WERE PRAISING GOD. IT’S WEIRD THAT THE DREAM STARTED OFF WITH ALL THESE PEOPLE IN THE CIRCLE BUT THE ONLY ONES THAT I COULD SEE IN MY DREAM WERE SOME OLD FRIENDS FROM HIGH SCHOOL. AMY DEPUE DEVIN PERKINS, AND THE LAST ONE I WANT TO SAY MISTY MCKEEN BUT IT’S VERY UNCLEAR. I NEVER GOT TO SEE GOD. WE WERE SHOUTING AND SAYING HALALUAH AND REPEATING ” WE MADE IT”. MY DREAM CONTINUES….IT’S LIKE NO ONE ON EARTH KNEW THAT I WAS EVEN GONE…SO I FOUND MYSELF STANDING AT THE FRONT DOOR OF THE OREGON CHURCH GETTING READY TO GO IN FOR SERVICE…I WAS AN ANGEL I APPEARED TO BE MYSELF TO MYSELF BUT TO OTHERS APPEARED AS SOMEONE ELSE….WHEN I WAS ASKED MY NAME I SAID ANGEL..I SAT ON THE FRONT ROW…I LEANED OVER TO ASK A TALL BLACK MAN BESIDE ME..”IS IT OK IF..” AND I PAUSED NOT REALIZING THAT HE WOULD NOT UNDERSTAND…BUT TO MY SURPRISE HE REPLIED ” IT’S OK FOR ANYONE TO COME TO CHURCH” WHICH IS WHAT I WAS GOING TO ASK HIM…MY WORSHITP WAS STOPPED BY A LITTLE GIRL CRYING FOR HER MOTHER..I TURNED TO SEE MY DAUGHTER KENNEDY. THE DREAM FLIPES TO THE SCENE OF THE LORD GIVING ME 2 CHOICES..I COULD EITHER STAY IN HEAVEN WITH HIM AND FORGET ALL ABOUT THE WORRIES AND HEARTACHE HERE ON EARTH OR I COULD GO TO MY DAUGHTER AS MYSELF ONCE AGAIN AND DEAL WITH LIFE AND COMFORT MY CHILD..I CHOSE TO COME BACK..FOR THE CRY OF MY BABY GIRL WAS RIPPING MY HEART OUT…I HAVE THIS FEAR OF SOMETHING HAPPENING TO ME AND KENNEDY BEING LEFT WITHOUT HER MOTHER….I KNOW HOW SHE CRIES FOR ME AND I COULD NOT BARE TO LEAVE HER…DREAM WAS OVER…BUT I FOR SOME REASON HAD A HARD TIME WAKING UP AND WHEN I DID WAS SORT OF DISAPPOINTED THAT I WASN’T REALLY IN HEAVEN BUT HERE ON EARTH….

January 26, 2012

labusquedademas — Thu, 26 Jan 2012 13:26:02 +0000

Today is my dads birthday. I hope he will be around for birthdays. We are having dinner with him and my mom this evening. I hope to not cry. He’s sick and needs much care. Well kids are awake, schools are closed today due to ice. I love my husband.

May 9, 2011

labusquedademas — Mon, 09 May 2011 17:17:58 +0000

So I married my best friend on April 2, 2011. I couldn’t be happier!!! It’s been over a month but seems like yesterday. I love this man, he’s the best thing to ever happen to me besides my kiddos. I truly cherish every moment with him.

March 10, 2011

labusquedademas — Fri, 11 Mar 2011 03:29:42 +0000

After much patients, excitement and trying times, the love of my life has asked me to marry him. Tonight. Of course with great honor I said YES!!!!!

March 1, 2011

labusquedademas — Wed, 02 Mar 2011 03:19:21 +0000

So this weekend and week has been memorable. We have decided to finally tie the knot. I love you and couldn’t be happier. Our rings are purchased, just waiting for the day.

Was it Sunday night or Monday morning that you asked me to marry you? Either way I did hear.